BLACK NO. 1

July 9, 2015 Laura Mazurek

OUTFIT DETAILS: dress - lulu*s (a few season's ago) // hat - free people // sandals - moorea seal // bag - baliELF // belt - vintage - necklace - aurora shadow // shadowbox ring - bella & chloe // small turquioise triangle ring - la bella joya // moon ring - amanda hunt // small circle ring - silk bone jewels // bracelet - vintage

As I was uploading these images the Typo Negative song Black No. 1 popped into my head, haha. It's been years since Ive heard that song, but it was like my anthem when I was 15. Funny how stuff comes back to you like that. I wore this outfit last friday when James and I went on a date. It had been so long since we had gone out just for fun, and it was so needed. When your in a relationship for a long time, inevitably there are highs and lows. And during the lows it can be so important to get back to the two of you. It can be hard sometimes with all the day to day stuff going on, and for us, weve had alot of big emotional changes happen in our life over the past 8 years weve been together. Working through these times together is challenging, and can even rock your foundation. When that happens, its time to start building it back up, brick by brick. Getting out of our day to day space is big for us, especially for me b/c I'm home all day everyday. I can tend to be a big hermit, literally only going to the post office for weeks on end. So when we do get out to do something other than grocery shop, its always a nice detour from the daily.

I haven't been on my blog as much as I'd like the past few weeks. I'm in full on makeover mode in my studio and back room. I'm redoing my studio from the ground up and it's been a huge task to weed out the things I don't use or need anymore. I'm a bit (alot) of a packrat. Ive been PURGING. Getting rid of things left and right. And I'm still not done. Now I want to do every room in my house again. It has been so freeing. I have a full size couch piled sky high in our garage of things I'm letting go of. I'll share the makeover when I'm done! And Ill be sharing pics on my instagram through the process. Ive never done a whole room makeover before. Ive rearranged my rooms hundreds of times, always using everything I already own, which is pretty much all stuff that's been handed down to me. It's exciting to create my dream studio space. Eeeekkkk!!! I can't wait to sit down and create my next magazine in this fresh space!

THREADS // PURPLE HAZE

June 24, 2015 Laura Mazurek

OUTFIT DETAILS: jumper - oasap // hat - whisler civilian // boots - gifted // necklace - love + leather // ring - sacred geometry silver

First of all, it feels good to be home! I just came home from a little weekend vacation up in Ohio/ West Virginia area to visit my grandfathers family. He has been gone since I was 15, but he was a sibling of 10 and the family has multiplied by the 100's over the years. I got to meet so many relatives I had no idea about this weekend. It was very cool. I will do a post on it soon and go into more detail.

Coming home has been a bit of a whirlwind. Tomorrow is my birthday and also happens to be the day I will officially be saying goodbye to my parents home. Big stuff. It will definitely be a brand new chapter in my life. It feels like I'm about to walk through a portal.

This little purple number was from last week. I'm sad to report it looks this romper is already sold out. I was a little afraid of it to be honest b/c its alot brighter than what I normally wear... But I actually LOVE it on. And I think it looks so cute with the vintage belt & boots.

I'm head over heels in love with the ring I had made from Sacred Geometry Silver. I sent her the palm stone and she paired it with the beautiful turquoise stone so perfectly, and topped it off with two little moons. It's just stunning. I'm so in love with handcrafted jewelry.

My brain feels a little full with my to-do list now that I am home. But I am trying to just do what I can and forget the rest until we get past this huge transition. This has been years coming, and it's crazy that the time is finally here. I can hardly decide how I'm even feeling, but I am focusing on the positives that this will bring into our lives. The blessing this will be...

THREADS // JUMPER LOVE + LETTING GO

June 11, 2015 Laura Mazurek

OUTFIT DETAILS: jumper - dolkii // swimsuit top - swim outlet // hat - free people // sandals - blowfish shoes // necklace - spiral drift // rings - chromafusion + bella & chloe + arrok + shannon noelke metal arts

This might be one of my alltime favorite outfits! I wore this to the Kerrville Folk Festival last weekend with my bestie to see David Crosby. I'm pretty much obsessed with this jumper. It is the coziest thing ever. I have a huge love for jumpers, but find myself not wearing them out much b/c its such a freakin' hassle to pee. Truth. But this one has such cozy wide legs, there is no need to strip all the way down just to pee. Just fyi for all those ladies out there who have the same thoughts about jumpers. Just keeping it real here.

Man last weekend was so good. I know I already talked about it so I won't go into it again. But what a great weekend. My spirits really needed the time out, and out of the house!

This week is intense. We are under contract with someone to buy my folks house, and if all goes well, it may be gone by my birthday (the 25th). I leave on vacation in one week and return right when all the action will happen. So I literally just have this week to say my goodbyes. For good. Forever. Shit is getting real. This has been a super long process and journey of letting go. A deep emotional rollercoaster. We are going to spend some time out there today gathering rocks and walking the woods. And saturday we are going to have an intimate camfire with my brother, and spread my dad's ashes on the property.

Speaking of my dad, I had the best dream about him last night. I think he is with me this week as I travel through this process. It took place at my parent's home. There was going to be a going away party, for my mom. My dad was still alive and the house was completely furnished like he was still living there. When I showed up there was people everywhere that I knew, and people from my childhood that I couldn't remember. I was looking everywhere for my dad but I couldn't find him anywhere. I started looking around the house and noticed that everything was super clean and picked up, the bed was even made. I felt something was wrong (my dad never picked up after himself, my mom always kept their place clean). I thought to myself, oh my god, he cleaned the house for me so I wouldn't have to and he killed himself. I panicked going around the place trying to find him. I kept touching people from behind thinking it was him, only for them to turn around and be somebody else. Finally when I had all but given up and realized he was gone, I saw him standing in line in the kitchen waiting for food and talking to people. I went over to him and he smiled and I hugged him with relief that he was alive. Then I felt an immense need to just really hug him. Like squeeze him. I put whatever I was holding down and we hugged each other. Then we fell to the ground together, still hugging and just sat up against the kitchen island embracing each other. I put my head on his shoulder and just soaked it it. He told me that he loved me about three times, and I told him back. It was the most sincere, warm, heartfelt embrace I had ever felt from him. I noticed too that his whole chest had crystals all over it, like amethyst and others. And we just embraced, and then I woke up. I did not want to open my eyes this morning upon waking. I just wanted to stay there in that embrace. In real life my dad was not super affectionate. I knew he loved me, but he did not grow up with warm embraces, and he didn't know how to give them himself. He showed his love in other ways. So this embrace in my dream felt so good.

This dream couldn't of come at a better time with all the I will have to face over the next few weeks. Usually come June I am so excited b/c it's my birthday month (yes I still get excited like a little kid). But I didn't ever realize until yesterday that it is only 15 days away, 14 now. And with everything going on it will be here and gone before I know it. It's weird to think I may be signing my parents home over to someone else on my birthday. But in a way, that will be a huge gift in itself. Just in ways I don't know yet. The whole idea of letting their home go, in exchange to build my dreams in the future, is one of the unknown. I don't know what it looks like yet. So I can only hold the dream that it will be beautiful, and worth the letting go. What a process. My little human heart feels like its been wrung out some days.

SKYLINE FEVER // WILD RIVER TEE

June 9, 2015 Laura Mazurek

We have a brand new tee in the shop!!! WILD RIVER -- the way I designed the layout though it can read as WILD FLOWER - RIVER SPIRIT or WILD RIVER - FLOWER SPIRIT. Oh my heart. I'm seriously in love with the style and fit of this tee. It's the perfect casual loose fit tee. These babies are super limited quantity right now, and only come in size S-L at the moment. We are trying to slowly build up a few ready made items in the shop so everything is not pre-order. So, this first batch is ready to ship asap (only a few of each size)...

FIND THEM HERE...

The beautiful jewelry in these photos is from the one and only Sailor's Omen, who just happened to release her brand new website today!