RAVEN MESSENGER

Last night before bed I took a bath + pulled my cards for the new moon. Something I do every new and full moon. I pulled a few of the same cards I always pull, and this time I pulled the Totem of Pipes - The Flyers (traditionally the Knight, but I use the Medicine Woman Tarot). This is the same card I pulled the same day Ava and I found that sweet birdy who had died in our backyard. After the cards message it says that I will encounter a flying one + to listen to it’s message. The last time I pulled it it was pretty obvious that the flying one calling my name was the Mockingbird, but when I pulled it last night I was curious what was going to come up this time.

Then this morning I awoke from the most magical dream about a Raven! I dreamt I was in my backyard and this Raven flew into my yard. Kinda cool b/c I have been seeing Crows flying over my yard for weeks now, so the message was already starting to come in for me. This bird was huge and magestic. It instantly came up to me and the next thing I knew we were cuddling + kissing + of course I was even taking selfies + videos with it, ha ha. Then I brought it inside with me and we cuddled and kissed some more all snuggled up on a little couch by my window. It kept rubbing it’s huge beak across my cheek + I just remember it being the most magical experience. We both felt so safe with each other. Then the next thing I know it turned into a dog that looked + acted just like my old dog Violet. I knew it wasn’t her, but was a lost dog in the neighborhood that was just like her who was looking for a home. I saw her smoosh her face under the pillows and lay on her back with all four paws in the air the way Violet used to do. I was so overjoyed, and then I woke up.

So, my flying one came through to me almost instantly. Raven is considered one of the most mystical creatures. Often being associated with total transformation + uncovering what is in the dark and bringing it to healthy light. This is one I’m going to sit with for a bit. I feel like these messages having been coming in pretty strong lately, which means it’s time to pay attention. I definitely feel like I am on the threshold of another transformation. And I will also be on the lookout for the possibility of a sweet new pup like Violet to enter our lives.

BELLA ROSA

My sweet soul companion Bella Rosa made her exit from this world on March 9th around 12:15 pm.  She lived 16+ happy years by my side and I couldn't be more grateful for every moment I had with her.  She was without a doubt the sweetest kitty I have ever known, and was such a mama's girl. 

She came into my life when I was in high school.  One day my boyfriend at the time was sitting on his porch when a little white kitty came out of the woods, came right up to him and jumped on his shoulder.  His dad would not let him have another animal so he called me.  My dad wouldn't either, but we decided to sneak her into my bedroom anyway.  She stayed there for about a month or so before he found out, thanks to my mom's help!  Then one day she snuck out into the living room and my dad saw her.  We lived in the country and already had about 13 outdoor cats, so with begging and pleading my dad let me keep as long as she went outside with the others.  She lived about a year like that, and when I moved away from home at 18 she came with me.  My first pet to leave home with me.  Since then she has been through my side through everything.  Heartache, death, confusion... always by my side, and always the sweetest presence. 

Since I have been pregnant she would lay on my belly every night and purr so deeply.  We joked that she was incubating my baby.  She could be so silly too.  She loved to get riled up at night before bed and play with the covers.  She loved to be outside and roll all around on her side, just flipping and flopping and making funny noises in pure bliss of the outdoors.  She always stayed close to home, never straying in the woods too far at all, so we would let her outside whenever she wanted.  I trusted her.  I could call her name and she would always come running back inside.  She was the most photogenic kitty ever.  Her eyes were so big and beautiful and it looked like she was wearing eyeliner.  She loved to be by my side, no matter what I was doing.  She loved hanging out with me in my studio while I created.  She loved to be spanked on her butt, like seriously loved it.  She loved peas.  Of all things, peas.  She always smelled like campfire, it was the best smell ever.  She loved to spend time in the tee pee with me.  She was the laziest player ever, she would bat strings or play with toys while she was laying on her side.  Everyone who met her loved her.  Opposite of Banjo who is afraid of anyone new.  She loved on people and loved it when people loved on her.  She was kind, gentle, nurturing, silly, beautiful, and will never ever be forgotten.

I spent the last few days of her life sitting near her, and the last few hours sitting on the floor with her with my hands on her, talking to her and letting her know it was okay.  I have a crystal that my mom held while she was dying, and I put it next to her through her transition.  It was hard and sad, but I will never regret spending those last moments with her, comforting her as much as I could while she passed from one realm to another.  Now she will always be my angel, and Ava Pearl's little angel too. 

I could literally post 1000's of photos of her.... here are a few of my favorites.

LUNA OWL

I'm super excited to share that our new Luna Owl design is now available on 3 different shirt styles in Skyline Fever's shop!  A little below on the design...

The day of the past Full Moon / Total Lunar Eclipse / Blood Moon - I spent the whole day outside, in my teepee, with my self, my thoughts, my tools, my sketchpad, my tea, and the moon.  I did not want to let a moment go by of this special time wasted on work or something meaningless.  I spent the day in intention, and I am so glad I did.  It filled me up so deeply, and felt so healing. 

I haven't drawn for the pure pleasure of drawing in quite some time.  I could even say years.  I had no idea the owl I drew was going to be a shirt design until I was finished.  I just allowed myself to sketch.  It was a feeling that took over, like I got lost in the art.  My eyes were blurring and crossing as my pencil just flew across the page almost like it had a mind of its own.  It was awesome.  Made me realize how much I love drawing, and how long its been since I let myself get lost in the muse like that.  I may have to make this a full moon ritual.  It was wonderful.

The moon was incredible too!  Did you get to witness it where you are?  What did you do on this amazing day?  I'd love to hear everyone else's experiences. Ive been wanting to sit and write a blog post in depth about it, I have just had such little time lately.  I am crazy knee deep in the magazine creating, have had company to do photoshoots, among many other things.  Life has just been to full to even blog much.  But I'm starting to see the magazine come into itself and it's getting me super excited for it's release.  It most likely will still be about a month before it comes out, but fingers crossed it will be even sooner!

OUR GROWING DEER FAMILY

I had the sweetest moment with our deer the other day.  I sat right on the edge of our sidewalk with my camera and just quietly sat with them and photographed them for about 45 minutes.  I'm so incredibly happy that the new babies are now a part of the big guys and get to come eat with everyone.  There are two babies that I'm certain of, but I think I spotted two more out in the field the other day.  One of the babies from last season who is almost a full grown adult now comes so close to me.  It was about 1-2 feet away eating.  If there were not so many other personalities in the mix now I'm sure they would be eating out of my hand by now.  But our heard has grown so much, usually having around 17 deer at one time, that when one gets spooked the others do too.  And there are always deer in the mix who haven't gotten to know us, so it's a daily process to see them all mix together.  Some days they are are cool and mellow and then others they are all fighting and kicking each other.  The kick the shit out of each other too, it's crazy!  But my heart is soooooooo overjoyed at having babies in our yard.  There is nothing sweeter than a baby deer.