It's been a hot minute since I have been in this space. I have been feeling the itch to get back to my blog, even if just every now and then for personal updates. I think I was trying to stuff myself inside a box by blogging just about mommy moments here in this space, and I need more than that in my life, and there is nobody telling me that I can't just blog whatever the heck I want, when I want. Why do we impose these silly rules for ourselves when it doesn't even matter? So here I am, showing up in all my random glory.
Today is the full moon in Capricorn. I'm not gonna lie, this moon phase has hit me like a ton of bricks. I have been deeply emotional, longing for the past, while trying to break through barriers of the here and now. I am needing personal space, silence, and to not be needed for like a day. I'm also feeling resistant to things I know I need to change with myself. The grief of my parents has been circling back around as well. And I am feeling a deep sadness within some of my friendships. Just a few layers of self + relationship that is processing in my heart. When I go through these periods I always know there is another side to it. I feel like I am Persephone in the underworld. It's another cycle of unearthing, unraveling, illuminating the dark, singing to the bones.
Some of my favorite tools for self reflection are above. My bath time is so sacred to me. Anytime I feel like I need to connect with self + spirit, I go to the water. I use an old shudder that came off my parents house as a bath tray. My specific tools change each time according to how I am feeling. This time it was Sacred Frankincense + Inner Child oils, a rose quartz crystal, a bath bomb, sage + palo santo, tea lights, my medicine woman cards and a glass of whiskey ginger. Oh and some yummy charcoal soap + mirah oil for my face. Pampering, tuning in, exhaling, releasing, quieting to allow myself to hear my inner calls. All of this is so necessary for me. What is that thing for you? What do you do to connect to self + spirit? I know this looks different for everyone, and I love that. It's so personal and there are no rules (at least in my world). I'd love to hear what you keep in your 'toolkit'.