The times are a changin' >>>

Good Morning!  Thank you so much to everyone who left such thoughtful feedback on my baby post.  I was pretty amazed at how many people came out and talked about their personal experiences here on the blog and on my facebook.  Thank you!  I know that all of my fears are valid, and also normal.  Some are a bit extreme, but only b/c of the circumstances Ive had to face so far in life with losing loved ones.  I am currently undergoing some major changes in my core being, which have really been validated through my personal readings with Julie.  Im quite impressed with her soul work and I feel like its starting me on a much needed journey of healing and truly loving myself.  As I work through some things I may share.  Alot of it is very personal work, so Ill most likely keep alot to myself, but as I feel I can, Ill share so that maybe you too can learn from it too.  We are all here to learn from each other as we walk this path of life.  There are so many different twists and turns we can take... people we can run to and people we can run away from... same goes for situations.  And the wonderful part is that it is all our choice.  We have the choice each morning when we wake up to decide what we are going to do (for the most part, besides your core needs, jobs and children, etc)... But you get the point.  I think so many people just ride lifes current and live.  But to truly live, I think you have to make some pretty hard choices and climb some pretty big mountains.  And the people you meet along the way are some of the most important parts.  Its not only through nature and god that we connect, but through others, even the ones that walk away from us.  There is something to be learned in it all.  And honestly, some of the people who have walked out of my life, although it hurt tremendously, it grew the biggest, most beautiful trees in my heart.  Sort of like pulling weeds out of your garden that you didnt realize were choking out the prettiest plants from blooming.  Then one day you turn around and realize a tree you never even knew existed has come into full bloom.  Get it???  Anyway, I have alot going on emotionally behind the scenes, and I dont forsee this as a 'weekend get away' kind of healing, but a life altering slow growing kind of healing.  

Yesterday we went to visit my family in the city.  They had just gotten back from a trip to Savannah Georgia and I was ancy to see everyone.  We had spagetti dinner at my nanna's, which I always eat wayyyy to much of b/c its sooooo good.  Then chocolate mousse pie!  My nanna sure knows how to fatten you up!  I always love eating at her house.  I got to play with my nephew Aiden, which doesnt happen often enough.  It was so much fun.  I got him a little airplane toy and he played with it the whole time we were there, it made my heart happy.  It was so nice to see my family.  And in just two weeks I get to see them again for Thanksgiving!!!

I think my outfit yesterday was one of my favorites.  So so comfy but still so me.  The necklace is one that will be coming to the shop soon.  I have lots of new goodies made, just havent had time to post them yet.  (and didnt James just look adorable???)

Side note:  I love butter beans.  Anyone else with me?  My mom always made them.  I hated them when I was younger, but grew to love them since she made them so often.  Now I eat them just to think of her and smile.  And it works!  And.... you know those beautiful solid colored bowls that they sell at Anthropologie???  Well, Ive been wanting to collect them for years now, but I can never bring myself to spend that much on a bowl.  When me and Shelley went shopping the other day, they had this teal color on sale for $2!!!!  So I got the first bowl in my collection!  Ill slowly collect them as I can.

PEACE,
Laura

Baby Travis >>>

Meet baby Travis.  He is my new beautiful blue eyed little nephew.  I now have two nephews, my brothers little boy Aiden, and now James' brothers little boy Travis.  When James and I have a baby we better even out this playing field with a little girl.  And yes, this little boy did make my baby fever worse.  Id like to know from those of you who already have little ones, did you plan it at all?  The having a child in general and did you plan the timing of its birth?  Im curious.  Both of our nephews were very unplanned, but Ive seen how they both have been the biggest blessings to both of our brothers.  But James and I are super planners...
{Dear little Travis, I cant wait to see how you change and grow throughout the years to come.  I hope that James and I will be the aunt and uncle you always feel like you can turn to when you need someone.  I think you are a huge blessing in all of the lives of your daddy's family.  In just the short time you have been here I have seen you change hearts and create such sincere smiles.  Thank you for being here.}

PEACE,
Laura

Soul searching for a moment >>>

Today (and the last few days) I really really really really miss my mom.  To the point where I feel like freaking out.  Although I know that will do me no good, so whats the point.  I just want to hear her voice, hug her, smell her, tell her how beautiful she is.  I miss my days with her so much.  I miss our talks.  She was always so good at bringing me out of a funk.  There are friends and family relationships in my life that are turning and changing, and it breaks my heart a little.  I wish I had her comfort.  I have so much comfort around me, Im truly blessed with amazing people in my life... but there is no other feeling in this world than the one that comes from your mom.  At least for me, I know this is not the case for many people, but for me, it is.  I find myself searching through the files in my brain, trying to hold on to a snip of her telling me something just to hear her voice in my mind.  But the harder I try, the harder it is to hear.  I think Im just feeling really unbalanced lately.  Too much work and not enough soul play.  I know this.  It just seems sometimes like Im never caught up.  But, just as I was freaking out to James the other night about how its getting to the point I cant do it all myself, an old friend shows up on my doorstep the next day and offers to help out possibly once a week, and go to yoga with me.  I know this is where I need to be.  I need to take better care of my body, and I need to allow myself to have help.  I like to think I can take on so much, but then at times it becomes exhausting.  

wow.  I think I really just needed to look within a bit more.  My body is telling me to slow down.  And to also take stock of the people in my life who want to be there just for me.  People who truly love me for who I am as a person, not as an artist, or as an emotional shoulder to lean on.  I like knowing I am a trusted friend that someone can come to when they need someone, but Im tired of only being called upon during those times.  Its time I really start paying more attention to that, and allowing myself to step away when I need to.  This is not just for friends, but for all people in my life.  

My heart is uneasy today, and I just really want my mom.  (insert a big pouty face)

PEACE,
Laura

My Little Loves - Interview + Giveaway >>>




To enter >>>

please leave ONE comment letting me know each thing you did (you get one point for each towards the giveaway)

follow bekah's blog
like My Little Loves on facebook
follow her on twitter
tell me what most inspired you by this lovely lady!

*and while your at it, check out her sister's lovely shop*

PEACE,
Laura